Moving In!

So we received the keys earlier this evening and we are finally moving into the new house! I wish I didn't have to work in the morning so I could just continue it right when I wake up tomorrow but at least I only work until 1pm. I'm hoping I can get my bed set up tomorrow and maybe my mom and I can have the kitchen finished, with the exception of the refrigerator and stove since we still need to buy those. I also will not be able to have my room organized for a while since I have to get a dresser and a desk yet...

Oh well this is all very excited and I am so very proud of my mom!!! :)

Field Placement

Hospice was not what I originally thought of doing for my placement or my career but maybe somethings really are just destined to happen. It makes sense that I would find more comfort being surrounded by death and those that are dying being that death has been very real to me since the age of seven. I think this career path will allow me to have that clinical aspect joining a holistic mind, body and soul approach along with more compassion than I would have found at the Cleveland Clinic or Metro Health. It really is the best of both worlds for me and I hope if I like it as much as I think I will I can find a career in it after graduation. It is definitely comforting to know that all the money and plans, with the exception of scheduling classes, is all done with. My only other concern is preparing for my licensing exam and acquiring the money to pay for it. I wasn't too happy when I found out I had to take the exam but it will be kind of nice to be an official licensed social worker.

Rascal Flatts-Why

It must’ a been a place so dark, couldn’t feel the light
Reachin’ for you through that stormy cloud
Now here we are gathered in our little home town
This can’t be the way you meant to draw a crowd
Oh why that’s what I keep askin’
Was there anything I could have said or done
Oh I had no clue you were masking a troubled soul, god only knows
What went wrong and why you’d leave the stage in the middle of a song
Mmmmmmm
Now in my mind I keep you frozen as a seventeen year old
Rounding third to score the winning run
You always played with passion no matter what the game
When you took the stage you shined just like the sun
Oh why that’s what I keep askin’
Was there anything I could have said or done
Oh I had no clue you were masking the troubled soul, god only knows
What went wrong and why you’d leave the stage in the middle of a song
Yah yah yah
Now the oak trees are swayin’ in the early autumn breeze
The golden sun is shining on my face
The tangled thoughts I hear a mockingbird sing
This old world really ain’t that bad a place
Oh why there’s no comprehending
And who am I to try to judge or explain
Oh but I do have one burning question
Who told you life wasn’t worth the fight
They were wrong
They lied
And now you’re gone
And we cried
Cause It’s not like you to walk away in the middle of a song
Your beautiful song
Your absolutely beautiful song

It is as if this song was written for him...and I know it is sadly the story for many people but I do not believe I have ever had a song impact me so personally. I feel him and I get goosebumps every time I listen to it. I just miss him so much lately. I feel as though it is because I'm officially back home and now more than ever I know that he is truly gone; that everything has changed and life has gone on without him. I'm grateful for my tattoo but it forces me to face the truth constantly and I like that I think about him more than ever but it is not always an easy thing to do.