Movies Movies Movies!!!

(x) Rocky Horror Picture Show
(x) Grease
(x) Pirates of the Caribbean
(x) Pirates of the Caribbean 2: Dead Man's Chest
(x) Boondock Saints
(x) Fight Club
(x) Starsky and Hutch
(x) Neverending Story
(x) Blazing Saddles
( ) Airplane
Total so far: 9

(x) The Princess Bride
(x) Anchorman
(x) Napoleon Dynamite
(x) Labyrinth
(x) Saw
(x) Saw II
(x) White Noise
(x) White Oleander
(x) Anger Management
(x) 50 First Dates
(x) The Princess Diaries
(x) The Princess Diaries 2: Royal Engagement
Total so far: 21

(x) Scream
(x) Scream 2
(x) Scream 3
(x) Scary Movie
(x) Scary Movie 2
(x) Scary Movie 3
( ) Scary Movie 4
(x) American Pie
(x) American Pie 2
( ) American Wedding
( ) American Pie Band Camp
Total so far: 29

(x) Harry Potter 1
(x) Harry Potter 2
(x) Harry Potter 3
(x) Harry Potter 4
(x) Resident Evil 1
( ) Resident Evil 2
(x) The Wedding Singer
(x) Little Black Book
(x) The Village
(x) Lilo & Stitch
Total so far: 38

(x) Finding Nemo
(x) Finding Neverland
(x) Signs
(x) The Grinch
(x) Texas Chainsaw Massacre
( ) Texas Chainsaw Massacre: The Beginning
(x) White Chicks
(x) Butterfly Effect
(x) 13 Going on 30
(x) I, Robot
(x) Robots
Total so far: 48

(x) Dodgeball: A True Underdog Story
( ) Universal Soldier
(x) Lemony Snicket: A Series Of Unfortunate Events
( ) Along Came Polly
(x) Deep Impact
( ) KingPin
(x) Never Been Kissed
(x) Meet The Parents
(x) Meet the Fockers
( ) Eight Crazy Nights
(x) Joe Dirt
(x) KING KONG
Total so far: 56

(x) A Cinderella Story
(x) The Terminal
( ) The Lizzie McGuire Movie
(x) Passport to Paris
(x) Dumb & Dumber
( ) Dumber & Dumberer
(x) Final Destination
(x) Final Destination 2
(x) Final Destination 3
(x) Halloween
(x) The Ring
(x) The Ring 2
( ) Surviving X-MAS
(x) Flubber
Total so far: 66

(x) Harold & Kumar Go To White Castle
(x) Practical Magic
(x) Chicago
(x) Ghost Ship
(x) From Hell
(x) Hellboy
(x) Secret Window
(x) I Am Sam
(x) The Whole Nine Yards
(x) The Whole Ten Yards
Total so far: 76

(x) The Day After Tomorrow
(x) Child's Play
( ) Seed of Chucky
(x) Bride of Chucky
(x) Ten Things I Hate About You
(x) Just Married
(x) Gothika
(x) Nightmare on Elm Street
(x) Sixteen Candles
(x) Remember the Titans
(x) Coach Carter
(x) The Grudge
( ) The Grudge 2
(x) The Mask
(x) Son Of The Mask
Total so far: 89

(x) Bad Boys
(x) Bad Boys 2
(x) Joy Ride
(x) Lucky Number Slevin
(x) Ocean's Eleven
(x) Ocean's Twelve
(x) Bourne Identity
(x) Bourne Supremecy
( ) Lone Star
(x) Bedazzled
(x) Predator I
(x) Predator II
( ) The Fog
(x) Ice Age
(x) Ice Age 2: The Meltdown
( ) Curious George
Total so far: 102

(x) Independence Day
( ) Cujo
( ) A Bronx Tale
(x) Darkness Falls
( ) Christine
(x) ET
(x) Children of the Corn
(x) My Bosses Daughter
(x) Maid in Manhattan
(x) War of the Worlds
(x) Rush Hour
Total so far: 110

( ) Best Bet
(x) How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
(x) She's All That
( ) Calendar Girls
( ) Sideways
(x) Mars Attacks
( ) Event Horizon
(x) Ever After
(x) Wizard of Oz
(x) Forrest Gump
(x) Big Trouble in Little China
(x) The Terminator 2
(x) The Terminator 3
Total so far: 119

(x) X-Men
(x) X-2
(x) X-3
(x) Spider-Man
(x) Spider-Man 2
() Sky High
(x) Jeepers Creepers
( ) Jeepers Creepers 2
( ) Catch Me If You Can
(x) The Little Mermaid
(x) Freaky Friday
(x) Reign of Fire
(x) The Skulls
(x) Cruel Intentions
(x) Cruel Intentions 2
( ) The Hot Chick
(x) Shrek
(x) Shrek 2
Total so far: 133

(x) Swimfan
(x) Miracle on 34th street
(x) Old School
(x) The Notebook
(x) K-Pax
( ) Krippendorf's Tribe
(x) A Walk to Remember
( ) Ice Castles
(x) Boogeyman
(x) The 40-year-old Virgin
Total so far: 141

(x) Lord of the Rings Fellowship of the Ring
(x) Lord of the Rings The Two Towers
(x) Lord of the Rings Return Of the King
(x) Indiana Jones and the Raiders of the Lost Ark
(x) Indiana Jones and the Temple of Doom
(x) Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade
Total so far: 147

(x) Baseketball
( ) Hostel
( ) Waiting for Guffman
( ) House of 1000 Corpses
( ) Devils Rejects
(x) Elf
( ) Highlander
(x) Mothman Prophecies
(x) American History X
( ) Three
Total so Far: 151

(x) The Jacket
( ) Kung Fu Hustle
( ) Shaolin Soccer
( ) Night Watch
(x) Monsters Inc.
(x) Titanic
(x) Monty Python and the Holy Grail
(x) Shaun Of the Dead
( ) Willard
Total so far: 156

( ) High Tension
(x) Club Dread
( ) Hulk
(x) Dawn Of the Dead
(x) Hook
(x) Chronicles Of Narnia: The Lion the Witch and the Wardrobe
(x) 28 days later
( ) Orgazmo
( ) Phantasm
(x) Waterworld
Total so far: 162

(x) Kill Bill vol 1
() Kill Bill vol 2
(x) Mortal Kombat
( ) Wolf Creek
() Kingdom of Heaven
(x) the Hills Have Eyes (the original!)
( ) I Spit on Your Grave aka the Day of the Woman
( ) The Last House on the Left
( ) Re-Animator
( ) Army of Darkness
Total so far: 165

(x) Star Wars Ep. I The Phantom Menace
(x) Star Wars Ep. II Attack of the Clones
(x) Star Wars Ep. III Revenge of the Sith
(x) Star Wars Ep. IV A New Hope
(x) Star Wars Ep. V The Empire Strikes Back
(x) Star Wars Ep. VI Return of the Jedi
() Ewoks Caravan Of Courage
() Ewoks The Battle For Endor
Total so far: 171

(x) The Matrix
(x) The Matrix Reloaded
(x) The Matrix Revolutions
( ) Animatrix
(x) Evil Dead
(x) Evil Dead 2
(x) Team America: World Police
( ) Red Dragon
(x) Silence of the Lambs
(x) Hannibal
Total: 179

So that explains why I never remember what happens in movies I've seen anymore....I've seen way too many!!!! Damn those Hollywood Video years....

Nowadays

So I would like to sit here and speak positively about all the great things going on in my life because I definitely use this blog to vent more often than I use it to discuss all the wonderful things I take for granted everyday but today might be a very bad day and I am still just waiting to find out. I can't help but thing that this time no news does not mean good news. If my mom lost her job today that would just be awful. She would have to move out of the apartment she loves, that would be good bye to this job that she has been really happy in and I don't even know if she would be able to stay in state. Also that would mean I would lose my insurance and I'm really afraid of not having insurance. I just wish that someone would call me back so I'm not just sitting here freaking out...

But really other than this potential issue I am doing pretty great! It is really weird to think about the fact that there are only 10 weeks left before graduation. The idea of leaving this place is becoming more real to me the closer it gets. For right now I try to think no further than Spring Break and how awesome that will be!

One Hell of a Week...

Positives: Completely done with grad school stuff, with the exception of U.C.
Matt bought me a wallet that I said I liked and the stamps I needed....very sweet!
My mom is actually coming to visit!
I got a bunch of cleaning done

Negatives: Car broke down and is going to cost me more money than I have
Meghan Moore deleted me as a friend on facebook
Umbrella broke
Scratched my eye with lint on contact
I'm not going to get any sleep tonight


Yeah so I'm more of a pessimist at 1:30am when I have to get up by 6:30am....

Also, I think I am more stressed now that my grad school stuff is in then when it wasn't done yet...at least then it was on my terms and now I am just waiting for my fate that is controlled by someone else. I'm terrified of my future even though I should be embracing it...I never expected to be this afraid of graduation. I know what I want and what makes me happy yet it all feels so complicated and overwhelming.

The straw that broke the camels back

I'm done...I'm not fighting for this friendship anymore.

You have gone too far this time and you immaturity has really shown through. I didn't realize I wasn't allowed to have a life because that means I can't be there for your every fucking need. This is so stupid that this is how you chose to betray me. I have had to take the responsibility and blame for every fight in the last seven years and I'm not doing it anymore! If you want to throw seven years of friendship away just like that, fine! Maybe its just not worth it anymore....you need to grow up!

Who the Fuck deletes their best friend from facebook?!?!

You have to live with yourself...I'm going to be fine because I have friends that know what friendship means.

"I will get by with a little help from my friends."

Old Feelings...

I find my self at this very moment reverting back to an old sense of self that I have desperately tried to over power. I just feel very alone and I'm not sure why. I feel like a push came to shove I am never picked first. I know that sounds lame but my mom will always favor my brother more, as she has blatantly stated to me before, I will never have a real best friend that will put me ahead of everyone else and not treat me like I can't make mistakes too, and even with Matt his family is still always first which I guess is fine but I don't think I have the type of family that I always want to put first since I am never first for them. I hate that I have to word it this way but I don't know how else to express it. I'm feeling phased out and left behind....

I just want to feel really special and I don't...I'm pretty sure its just my own problem but I don't know how to make it go away anymore. When will I grow out of my daddy issues because they ruin me and my relationships? Lately I just don't like who I am and I suppose how is anyone suppose to care about me if I don't care about myself...

Thanks Megan!

001. Real name – Lindsay Kayla Simbeck
002. Nickname(s) - Lindz, Lindy, Lindy-Lou, Sweets, Izzy
003. Status – In a relationship :)
004. Zodiac sign – Cancer
005. Male or female – Female
006. Religion - My own version of Christianity
007. Elementary – Pearl Rd Elementary and Brook Park Memorial
008. Middle School - Ford Middle School
009. High School – Midpark High School
010. Hair color – Dirty Blonde, Mousy Brown...?
011. Eye color – Green
012. Loud or Quiet - Majority quiet but I can be loud depending
013. Sweats or Jeans - Jeans
014. Phone or Camera - Phone
015. Health freak - In some ways but not as much as I should be and used to be
016. Favorite Physical Quality – ummm...you tell me
017. Do you have a crush on someone? - I think I do still have a crush on Matt along with deeper emotions
019. Piercing – Only 8 now since I had to let the one heal up
020. Tattoos - None yet but hopefully soon
021. Water or Fire – Water because it tastes yummy....and is about 80% of the human body
022. Love of your life or 4 Billion Dollars - I will keep my love thank you but if you want to give me a little money on top of that I will accept
023. First fear – tight spaces
024. First best friend – Jessica Zubik
025. First award – Attendance...?
026. First crush – Mr. Dan Soza my brothers friend from the 1st grade
027. First pet – Leo our painted neck turtle
028. Car trip - First car trip...Maybe South Carolina when I was 3 to see my uncle in the Marines...?
029. First big birthday – Well I don't remember the first few so I can't really compare them all
030. Siblings - One big brother
033. Favorite Dessert - Ice cream...could eat it everyday
034. Favorite toy in your house – Boo
035. Ring? - My favorite ring? My Claddagh which is still broken :(
036. Favorite Season - Summer
037. Favorite Flower(s) – Lillies
038. Favorite Spice - Cinnamon
039. Pancakes or Waffles – Waffles!
040. Left or Right-handed - Right
041. Virgin? - Not anymore
042. How many relationships have you been in? - Only one serious relationship
043. Silver or Gold? - Silver
044. Checkers or Chess? - Chess
045. Desktop or laptop? - Laptop
046. Ever been Out of the country? - Does Canada really count...?
047. Where? - Canada
048. Big City or Small town? - Big cities for the most part
049. Favorite Food type - Meat
050. Favorite Drink – Sweet Tea
051. Dogs or Cats – Dogs...shh don't tell the Boo
052. I'm about to – Make my lunch, watch the end of the Superbowl and get ready for bed...
053. Listening to – Superbowl commercials
054. Plans for today – well today is almost over so I plan to go to bed so I can wake up at 6am
055. Waiting for - My future to make sense...
056. Your Height - 5'7"
057. Contacts or Glasses - Both but I prefer contacts
058. Want kids? - Just puppies please
059. Want to get married? - The little girl inside of me does....and so far she is winning
060. Careers in mind – Social Worker at a hospital preferably the Cleveland Clinic and then perhaps a professor
061. Rain or Snow - Snow!
062. Gloves or Mittens - Gloves
063. Favorite Girl's Name – Skyler
064. Favorite Boy's Name – Jack
065. Believe in Magic? - The child inside me does
066. Soda, Pop, or Coke? - Soda
067. Brain or Brawn? - Brain
068. Prefer Lips or eyes – Eyes
069. Great body or great Personality? - Personality
070. Do you want to be Shorter or taller? - I'm fine
071. Do you want to initiate the relationship or him/her? - A happy medium was fine with me when I was in that game
072. Romantic or spontaneous - You can't be spontaneously romantic? (I agree!)
073. Nice stomach or nice arms – Ummm...can I have both or is that too greedy...I might have to go with the stomach
074. Sensitive or loud – Sensitive
075. Hook-up or relationship – Relationship
076. Should you be friends first or date first? - I suppose there is nothing wrong with either but it is good to be friends on some level
077. Troublemaker or hesitant – Hesitant
078. Chivalry or not? - Chivalry please
079. Favorite Board Game – Scene It and Trivial Pursuit
080. Lost glasses/contacts – I think I lost a contact once or twice in my 8 years
081. Ran away from home – Yes
082. Held a gun/knife for defense? - No
083. Killed someone? - No
084. Heartbroken – Yes but not in the romantic sense
085. Been arrested – No
086. Done anything illegal - Yes
087. Cried when someone died – Yes
088. Cried by yourself – Yes
089. Laughed till you cried? - Yes
090. Believe in Miracles? – Yes
091. Believe in Love at first sight? - No
092. Heaven – I probably don't belong there.... :/
093. Santa Claus - He's on the refridgerator
094. Say 'I Love you' on the first date – ? No
095. Sex on the first date - I could never do that
096. Hold hands on the first date – Perhaps
097. Is there one person you want to be with right now – Yes
098. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life – I should be more happy than I am but how happy can you been when chilling on crossroads
099. Do you believe in God? - Yes...but I'm not always sure he really believes in me...
100. Is anybody going to take this from you? - No