Here's to the nights.....where we are wonderfully lame!

Ouch....that kinda burns

I didn't expect to get slapped in the face today...but I guess no one ever does; if they did they would duck....

I can't believe Boo is 1! That means pretty soon it will be the anniversary of the day we brought her home and all this trouble started haha.

I do wish I could freeze frame every moment, well every enjoyable moment, and hold onto these next seven months with all of the strength of the world but I know time is much stronger and the sun rises and sets so quickly everyday. I do hope that this year can prove to be the greatest ride of my life thus far; so great that the rest of my years will have to work hard to compare. I hope for even more laughter and less tears...although tears do always have a way of bring people together through some sort of special bond.

I hope that when I walk from all of this that I walk knowing that those that I love dearly will always be walking with me in a manner that reveals that we never really left this world behind us. Some of these friendships won't be strong enough to survive the end, but for those that I am willing to bet on May will not be the end...just another step showing the continuation of our story as friends.

One Day at a Time

I know I make mistakes and I know I don't always learn from them the way I want to, but I try. I guess that is what life is all about anyways; just trying everyday. I think my greatest goal in life is to constantly attempt to become a better person than I was the day before. I don't want to leave this life with any regrets and I don't want to leave behind hurt feelings of any kind. I want to be someone that when people think of they smile. I want to inspire! I want to do such great things that people will be motivated to great things to....to pay it forward. I want to leave my mark here even if it is only for the sake of a few people. I don't want to say "I can't" anymore!

I want to love and not to judge. I want to understand that people are different from me and that is what makes them wonderful....in other words I do not want to judge or criticize. I want to avoid those conversations where people talk ill of others. I gossip too much. Granted sometimes some conversations are about trying to find a way to resolve issues for someone I love but i need to find a better, a more professional, manner in which to have these conversations.

I just want to try....and to make as many people as I can smile or even laugh. People hold onto the negative but live for the positive...I need to find some sort of balance for this issue in my life.

Goal Number One: Push the negative out! As best as a fallible human can anyways...

Love those for who they are and love myself despite my own flaws...

Amused!

I'm walking to a new beat

So I think I am truly feeling this senior thing... I have never felt so comfortable walking down the streets or sitting in the classes in this campus. I am going to try and appreciate every aspect of this year but I can't help and feel myself growing out of this place and looking toward the larger cities of this country to fulfill my needs. Every time I start looking at grad schools I feel those exciting little butterflies that resemble those that occur when falling in love. I'm pretty sure there is a big part of me that loves change and looking for the potential of a situation.

Wooooo!!! I'm really excited for this year and how much fun we are all going to have!

Oh how I miss the internet when I am not at school...

Today I tried to buy a wii online for $200, the seller did not accept my offer; somewhat disappointed. Although, on the bright side I am really, and I mean really, in debt right now; so maybe it was life's way of saying stop wasting money you do NOT have. Hopefully by the end of the summer I can get out of this whole that I have dug myself in. Damn this stupid CSU class that has eaten a sincere about my of finances. It is such a waste...

I cannot believe it is already June 12th. I still havent given my brother his birthday present and its been almost a month now; I pretty much suck. On the other hand my brother doesnt really make anytime for me so why should I really care anyways.

I dont like going home. I am much happier when I am just here at Matt's; even when he is away at work like right now. I can't deal with my grandparents; I feel pretty rotten saying that but its true. I just don't know why they had to start smoking again, I cant deal with watching them kill themselves. They are aging with such a lack of grace that I now am beginning to fear growing old. For the last few years I have thought that growing old is a privilege; since not everyone gets to do it, but they make it seem to painful...

Boo is my saving grace. I am so in love with that cat its pretty much ridiculous. She is such an angel; even when she is bad it is usually hysterical and I cant help but laugh at her. She has been ripping up Matt's stupid wall paper and I think its great. He thinks I taught her to do it haha. I think she has gotten bigger...she seems so heavy when I pick her up. I hope she lives for many years to come!

I like Sherwin Williams; my bosses are awesome. I only have 7 more S.T.A.R.T. tests and then I will get 9.50 on hour! I also love getting paid breaks, especially since I keep eating at Panera Bread since its right next door...its almost like getting paid to eat it!!!

I went for a two hour walk down in the valley by my house yesterday; I think I really needed the serenity of alone time. I hope I get more chances to do that throughout the summer...maybe next time I will stop by the horse stables and see if they take volunteers....?