Drugs Or Us

I hate this....why is it that without fail so many things fall a part during the holidays?

You play the victim but now we are all victims because of you. How do you expect any of us to trust you now? Maybe its not in me to take care of you anymore...maybe I should just add another failure to my list....Wil, my father, Jenna, now my brother too. Maybe I can't actually help anybody.

What is the point of all of this? I just want to scream and yell and shake you until you understand but I also want to hold onto you for fear of losing you too. I just hate this...why did it have to be this way?

I don't think I will ever understand substance abuse and addiction.

Maybe 20-30 days in jail, despite the holidays, is what you need. I wish you could see how much this hurts us.


"If only you could see
The stranger next to me
You promised you promised that you're done
But I can't tell you from the drugs."