Pain

Someday things will get better for my family, for my brother...

Now is just not that someday.


Eight long years of consistent family struggle; when we will earn a break?

I'm tired of being proud of my strength....when am I entitled to just fall apart instead of being the one to save everyone.

Maybe I will take up Matt's parents offer and move into the spare room...temporarily.

I know my brother needs me, again, but he needs to learn how to save himself for once. I had to always save myself....

I thought after a couple of days this anger would go away but its not. He needs to learn that he cannot keep hurting everyone.

Please God don't let my brother turn into his father.